It makes me so sad that I keep having these kinds of issues when it comes to full-time employment. I had the highest hopes for this place and this job when I first started, I haven’t even reached my first full year and I’m already just so jaded and drained.
I work my ass off, am one of the most reliable when it comes to most of my peers (I’ve never abandoned any of my work — or just simply not done it — and left it for someone else to deal with, yet I’m often having to pick up the slack for others) and I continuously get poked and picked on for the stupidest shit. Seriously — I feel like I’m in elementary school with the the way I am talked to. The only way I can figure it is that they’re really trying to push me out, get me to quit.
I work so hard, because I fucking love the grind. I truly do. I absolutely love making money, and I love knowing that I earned it. I have such high hopes for my future, I’m constantly setting goals and I only ever want to be even better. That seems to completely turn people off, how dare I be motivated and want to work hard for the things I want?!
This world doesn’t make sense. I cannot wait for the day I am fully self-employed.
It’ll be better one day. But for now, it fucking sucks and I’m majorly over it. I can’t believe it’s so hard to find a company that will simply just treat me with respect and not walk all over me. I would never treat my employees like this and, at the very least, I can add these experiences to my list of things not to do.