when you throw up your hair just to get it out of your face then later catch a glimpse of yourself in a mirror and realize that your haphazard approach to hair design actually turned out really freaking cute
this is the softest, best smelling, most comfortable hoodie ever. i totally kidnapped it from aaron last night. it will be mine one day. :P
i have to say as much as i’m looking forward to warmer weather i’m going to miss hoodie weather. good thing it comes around twice a year. :)
this is what happens when i attempt to show off my nail color.
i look like a retard lol
actually i look pretty fucking adorable and i am more than ready to head out and get my EPIC ROCK ON.
my nails smell like fucking peaches. NAIL POLISH THAT HAS A SCENT WHEN IT DRIES IS POSSIBLY THE MOST WONDERFUL COSMETIC INVENTION IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD EVER AM.I.RIGHT.
i don’t feel like getting my stuff together for tomorrow so i’m just going to keep taking pictures of myself.
i’m really happy with my hair but i’m still feeling depressed. i was hoping a change would make me feel better, i was stupid to think that.
hopefully something changes soon. lately everything feels tedious and like a chore, even things i have been looking forward to.
i’m supposed to be seeing one of my favorite bands tomorrow night and i’m having trouble getting excited.
i just feel blah, i’m back to having zero self esteem and i really don’t like it.
feelin’ all kinds of awesome and adorable mostly on account of all the extra great lovin’ i got over the last two days. i’m back, and it’s feeling fucking wonderful.
now off to see rush with my dad. WOOT
I’m in Frankenmuth for the World Expo of Beer.
I go shopping. I buy penguins.
Hey, it’s what I do. :]
The little one is actually a Japanese eraser. In the shape of a penguin. Awesome. :]
Now off to drink more!! :D
i did it! (thanks hennny!)
i just came across this picture in my mass editor and wanted to post it again because it reminds me of beer fest and it reminds me of how ridiculously adorable i can be. :D
being the super awesome person she is she made me one and sent it to me and i got this little guy today. (she even gave me the choice to make it in purple, and anyone who knows me knows about my intense love for purple and yellow!)
he’s absolutely perfect and i’m still trying to find a good place to put him so that i can see him all the time.
definitely go check out THIS BLOG, this little lady is immensely talented. bug her to get her stuffs up on etsy because i think she’d make a killing. :D
freshly showered. unbrushed hair. a shirt that reads ‘hard to the core’ by some local band called it lies within that sounded good last weekend when i was drunk and they were opening for mushroomhead. equipped with a beer and attempting to work on design stuff while i try to keep aaron motivated to work on his homework too. he invited me back over tonight. he said he wanted to show me his new apartment decorations. he’s kinda lying, he wanted to see me too. ‘cause he missed me. and ‘cause he loves me and stuff.
is it ever too early in the day to start drinking cheap wine?
am i going to be in bed by 8 a.m. tonight?
as there are many things about me physically that i’m working really hard to change,
no matter what kind of hair day i’m having,
no matter how ugly i feel i may look some days,
i will always love my eyes. always.
it’s smile friday. and this smile friday i have lots to smile about. i also have lots to not smile about but that is all irrelevant, for it’s smile friday.
i’m smiling because i’m happy. because i’ve got this wonderful boy in my life. a boy who helps motivate me. a boy who inspires me. who tells me good things when i’m down because he wants to see me smile. he doesn’t like it when i’m not smiling and he does what he can to fix it.
as i feel i must constantly reiterate due to the majority of the population not being able to grasp such a concept: he makes me happy, but he doesn’t make me happy. get it? he makes me smile. he makes me feel great. he makes me feel gorgeous. just being around him, everything feels awesome. but i’ve found true happiness on my own. all by myself. i would be sad if he wasn’t in my life. very, very sad. but then i’d be happy again one day. because boys can’t fulfill that for you. you have to do it all by yourself.
and when you can achieve that you’ll find a boy who’s worth experiencing that happiness with you. a boy who is worth spending your time and effort on. who isn’t going to intentionally hurt you because you know what your worth is and you know you deserve better than that. when you’re sincerely happy and you know what you want out of life you’ll be able to find a boy like mine. you won’t settle. you’ll find one who is worth it. and one who is absolutely amazing. :)